recognition
my life is worth living. i have everything i want and i want everything i have, which isnt much. i have a protective web around me, formed by family and friends who love and care for me. i have a child and a dog. i have a camera. i have a computer. i have a home. i have my health, and my family has theirs. i have my faith. i have an incredible career. all sustain me, all define me.
but in the 2006 year of our lord, i want something more. i want an improved cash flow. im tired of lying to myself by saying that money isnt important. oh, but it is. i want to have it without it having me. i want to earn more, but i wont be whore for it. i want money to save for the proverbial rainy day and the very real prospect of matts college fund. i want to use money, but i wont be seduced by it.
i know now that im ready for this. had it been a year ago and had i been blessed with much money, i would have squandered it on materialistic waste. im good at finding the dumbest of things to spend money on and of convincing myself that i need them. talk about anti-teachings of feng shui. but now, im much better. im more in control of myself. spending money makes me vomit. and it leaves a bad taste in my mouth.
in 2006, one of the themes of my resolutions is accumulation. those who know me can be rest assured that i am not going to change by the mere rise in my bank account. in fact, i will probably become a miser because of it. but the desire for more income isnt really for me. its for my son, for my family, for charity. its time i stepped and earn more. but i hope some conglomerate can afford me because i am expensive.
another theme is assertion. i will seek counseling in an effort to receive an emotional and psychological overhaul. this will be another great endeavor, a process that will take years to address, but it must be done. again, i am prepared for this. but i will go at it alone. this is my baby, not to be shared with family or friends or random acquaintances.
the next theme is awareness. i will be more attentive to my needs, more sensitive to others, more proactive in attending to my daily trials and tribulations. to accomplish these, i need to slow down. i will still live on the edge and be impulsive, but i will work on attaining inner peace. i will be me, on my way to self-efficacy.
and of course, there will be random things to do or to dont to make my life more difficult than necessary. a few examples are to deny myself of diet coke, of sex, of eating out. but i will also read more, write more, photograph more. all in 365 days.
i resolve to live a life worth living.
heres to a great 2006. may it be filled with challenges to overcome, with love to be had, and with places to be seen. may i rise to the occasion as i am called, and may i be called to occasions as they arise.
a flat tire set me back $90 today. why doesnt money grow on trees? if it did, id have a whole orchard.
my life is worth living. i have everything i want and i want everything i have, which isnt much. i have a protective web around me, formed by family and friends who love and care for me. i have a child and a dog. i have a camera. i have a computer. i have a home. i have my health, and my family has theirs. i have my faith. i have an incredible career. all sustain me, all define me.
but in the 2006 year of our lord, i want something more. i want an improved cash flow. im tired of lying to myself by saying that money isnt important. oh, but it is. i want to have it without it having me. i want to earn more, but i wont be whore for it. i want money to save for the proverbial rainy day and the very real prospect of matts college fund. i want to use money, but i wont be seduced by it.
i know now that im ready for this. had it been a year ago and had i been blessed with much money, i would have squandered it on materialistic waste. im good at finding the dumbest of things to spend money on and of convincing myself that i need them. talk about anti-teachings of feng shui. but now, im much better. im more in control of myself. spending money makes me vomit. and it leaves a bad taste in my mouth.
in 2006, one of the themes of my resolutions is accumulation. those who know me can be rest assured that i am not going to change by the mere rise in my bank account. in fact, i will probably become a miser because of it. but the desire for more income isnt really for me. its for my son, for my family, for charity. its time i stepped and earn more. but i hope some conglomerate can afford me because i am expensive.
another theme is assertion. i will seek counseling in an effort to receive an emotional and psychological overhaul. this will be another great endeavor, a process that will take years to address, but it must be done. again, i am prepared for this. but i will go at it alone. this is my baby, not to be shared with family or friends or random acquaintances.
the next theme is awareness. i will be more attentive to my needs, more sensitive to others, more proactive in attending to my daily trials and tribulations. to accomplish these, i need to slow down. i will still live on the edge and be impulsive, but i will work on attaining inner peace. i will be me, on my way to self-efficacy.
and of course, there will be random things to do or to dont to make my life more difficult than necessary. a few examples are to deny myself of diet coke, of sex, of eating out. but i will also read more, write more, photograph more. all in 365 days.
i resolve to live a life worth living.
heres to a great 2006. may it be filled with challenges to overcome, with love to be had, and with places to be seen. may i rise to the occasion as i am called, and may i be called to occasions as they arise.
a flat tire set me back $90 today. why doesnt money grow on trees? if it did, id have a whole orchard.
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