confessions about my friend

1. i want to shroom with my friend, give him head, and then have our friendship restored in the way we left it.
2. when he speaks passionately about something that doesnt make sense to me or when im tired of hearing it, i want to go to him and look into his eyes as i pull him close to my lips.
3. if no one else existed, i would do things w/ my friend that would make him blush if i whispered them in his ear.
4. i hate that im celibate and have lost some of my balls.
5. i hate that hes married and has no balls.
6. there is a comfort i feel when i am with him...and i miss when i am not with him.
7. i look at his arms and wonder how they would feel around me.
8. i genuinely like this person and respect him so much.
9. this like and respect for him keeps me from acting on my physical instincts.
10. but if there was a chance...id take it. immediately.
11. guilt and regret are two things that i fear i will associate with him.
12. i know that i want him, but i dont want him to know.
13. i wonder what i would do if the opportunity presented itself.
14. i actually know what i would do.
15. i would do him.
16. or not.